I'm sorry I haven 't talked to you in so long.I feel I've been lost......no bearings, no compass.I kept crashing into things, a little crazy, I guess.I've never been lost before.You were my true north.I could always steer for homewhen you were my home.Forgive me for being so angry when you left.I still think some mistake's been made......and I'm waiting for someone to take it back.But I'm doing better now.The work helps me.Most of all, you help me.You came into my dream last night with that smile......that always held me like a lover......rocked me like a child.All I remember from the dream......is a feeling of peace.I woke up with that feeling......and tried to keep it aliveas long as I could.I'm writing to tell you that I'm on a journey toward that peace.And to tell you I'm sorry about so many things.I'm sorry I didn 't takebetter care of you......so you never spent a minute being cold or scared or sick."